The weight
It isn’t the silence itself that suffocates; it’s what silence leaves behind. It carves out spaces where thoughts have nowhere to go but inward, and you are left alone with them. Alone with yourself. That’s the problem, isn’t it? Being alone with yourself. Not because you can’t stand the quiet, but because in the quiet, everything you’ve been trying to outrun finally catches up. The doubts come first. Soft, insidious things that don’t announce themselves with grandeur but seep in like water through cracked walls. Why don’t they call? Why don’t they notice? The questions arrive like familiar strangers, and you let them in because you have nothing else to fill the silence with. You know these questions don’t have answers, or at least not answers that you would dare admit aloud. I have been in rooms so quiet I could hear my heartbeat echoing in my ears, rooms where even the hum of a refrigerator felt like an intrusion. And yet, those rooms were loud compared to the noise in my own head. T